Hmm...

Feeling lonely again, all of a sudden.

Just had a big kinda debate with Alex and Franz and my brother. It was interesting, in that at the end, we kind of understood that we were all talking about the same thing. Though some interesting points did come up though, such as on the point of compromise: You can compromise on things, but if they involve compromising your faith or truth, it's a definite no.

I don't know how this relates to it, but I can just start to feel doubts: "You know, because you are like this and you hold onto your way, nobody's gonna like you, ever. Maybe that's why people have left you, eh? Yeah, that must be why. That's why people never like you for long."

I know it's an attack of lies at this point; however, there's also the feeling that, you know, I need to learn the reverse... how to compromise in situations. Standing fast for my faith is something that I can do, though I admit that people do give me a lot of invisible pressure when I do it in public. But compromising is something that I'm bad at, I think. Am I?

I don't know. I just know that Satan's wacking on me again, and this feels lonely. Alex also told me he thinks I'm "Definitely ready." for relationships and such: but I still don't think so, especially since I haven't gone through something I told God I'd go through with him first. Maybe that's also something else that made me think about this.

Oh yeah, and that song that Anna sent me. Check it out on google: "Faithful Friends" by Twila Paris/Steven Curtis Chapman. It's a beautiful song, and I think me thinking about loneliness definitely had something to do with that.